Royal Mistake #4 Read online

  And isn’t that what he’s been telling me all along? That I could never understand his devotion to his country? I still don’t completely get it, but if he was actually able to make a decision like that—to choose to marry a woman who is so obviously a terrible match for him—his dedication to his country must run deeper than I can ever imagine.

  I suppose that’s the point—I can’t imagine. I understand being devoted. I’ve been a devoted employee for the past five years. That is the sort of dedication I can understand. But I’ve always had a choice. No one had me chained to my desk—I wasn’t born to work at some job. He’s never had a choice. He’s never had an ounce of freedom to do what he wants.

  Why haven’t I seen that before?

  The stout man is at the door when Andrew opens it—I think his name is Stephan.

  He lets out a small shriek when he sees Andrew and covers his mouth with his hand as he gives Andrew a shallow bow. He stares at Andrew for a second, dropping his hand to his side before he turns his gaze to mine. “Ms. Simpson. You are to collect your things and I am to escort you from the palace to await your transportation back to the United States.”

  I nod. “That’s fine. I haven’t unpacked since I arrived yesterday, so it should only take me a second to get my stuff.” I stare at Andrew’s back for a moment and my voice lowers. “I thought I had another day. When William came to deliver the messages last night—”

  Stephan interrupts. “His Majesty reconsidered his initial assessment and decided it would be far better for you to leave at once, even if you are required some additional travel time. In fact, the Lady Clarissa insisted—”

  Andrew cuts him off this time. “Oh, fuck Lady Clarissa and her histrionics.” He turns around and looks into my eyes before he turns back to the man at the door. “You may give my father a message, Stephan.”

  Stephan bows his head.

  “Tell him there has been a change of plans.”

  The man looks up at him. “A…change? But…but, Your Highness. His Majesty has already decided—”

  Andrew interrupts with something that sounds like a growl. “And that is precisely the problem. He has decided my fate. And you may let him know that I have now decided my fate. Or rather, fate has decided for me. And my decision is clear.”

  Stephan’s brows draw together. “Your…decision, Your Highness?” He clears his throat. “And what may I tell His Majesty your decision is?”

  Andrew turns back to me and flashes me a small smile before turning back to Stephan. “You may tell him that I have chosen Victoria. And that if it means I must abdicate my role as heir to his throne, so be it.”

  Stephan’s face immediately turns four shades of purple at the news, but he gives Andrew a shallow bow and walks back into the hallway.

  He closes the door and turns back to me. “I hope that doesn’t shock you, Victoria. And I hope you understand I do not intend to frighten you in any way. I merely needed to get the message across to my father in terms I know he will understand.”

  “He’s never going to let you abdicate the throne, though. We both know that—”

  The smallest of smiles plays at the corners of his lips. “Then he’ll have to change his rules. Allow me to make my own decisions. And Victoria, I know we already discussed this, and regardless of what my father might want, I’ve already made my choice. I’ve already chosen you.”

  Andrew

  I see the emotions come in waves across her face—confusion, followed by what I can only hope is joy, followed quickly by what appears to be frustration.

  “I…I don’t get it,” she says, throwing up her hands. “One minute you’re going to marry someone else, then you’re not, then you’re going to marry someone else again…” She shakes her head. “I can’t keep doing this. I can’t put myself through this again. I can’t keep giving myself hope and then…” She wipes the back of her hand across her eyes, turning away from me. “I know you aren’t doing this on purpose, but I need to take care of myself. I feel like I keep jumping into the same pit over and over again, expecting it not to hurt when I hit the ground this time.”

  Her choice of words brings me right back to the roof last night, and I find myself stepping forward, pulling her into my arms so that her back is against my chest. My mouth drops to her ear.

  “This is my final decision,” I tell her. “There will be no changing my mind again, I promise.”

  A tear trickles down her cheek, and there’s a hollow ache in my chest. I never meant to make her cry. Never meant to put her through all of this because of my inability to admit what I wanted—and take the risk to reach out and grab it.

  I brush my lips against her cheek. “There is no other choice for me. I can’t go back. The only time my life makes sense anymore is when I’m with you.” My voice cracks as I say it, and I know by the way she stiffens that she’s heard it.

  She twists and looks up at me, frowning. “Andrew?”

  I kiss her gently. “We’re together now. That’s what matters.”

  She turns all the way around in my arms, the furrow on her brow deepening. “What happened last night?”

  “You know what happened. Lady Clarissa caught us, and—”

  “After that.”

  I try to think of the best way to put all of this into words, but I can’t.

  “You didn’t come back,” she whispers. “And then William told me you were engaged to Lady Clarissa. And then when you finally came back here, you looked…” Her eyes close. “I’ve never seen you look like that before. Something happened.” She opens her eyes again, and all trace of tears is gone, replaced by something deep and searching.

  I can’t tell her the truth—that I contemplated ending it all. That the only reason I’m standing here now was the thought of seeing her face again. Holding her in my arms again.

  “I just realized how important you are to me,” I murmur. “That I couldn’t give you up.”

  Her lips tighten, and she gives a small shake of her head. “It’s something more than that.”

  I can see she’s not going to let me escape her questions. But before I can devise a better answer, another knock sounds at the door.

  I’m torn between wanting to ignore it—curse my father and everyone else in this blasted world—and being grateful for the escape from Victoria’s gaze.

  “Whoever it is probably won’t go away,” I say softly, stepping away from her. I stride over to the door and open it, finding Stephan sneering back at me again.

  “His Majesty has requested your immediate presence in his office,” the sniveling bastard says.

  “Of course he has.” I’m of half a mind to ignore the summons, to walk out of this damned palace with Victoria on my arm and to never look back.

  But I refuse to be a coward any longer. I want to look him in the eyes and tell him I won’t let him decide my fate any longer.

  “I should go speak with him,” I tell Victoria. “I’d like you to accompany me, if you’re willing.” As much as I hate to subject Victoria to my father, having her there will give me strength.

  For a brief moment, she looks uncertain. But then she nods. “All right.”

  I turn back to Stephan. “Inform him that Victoria and I will be along shortly.”

  Stephan’s nose wrinkles. “He asked to speak with you, Your Highness, not—”

  “Tell him Victoria will be joining me, or I won’t speak with him at all. My decision is final.”

  Stephan does not look particularly pleased by this, but I care little what this man thinks of me.

  When he’s gone, I look back at Victoria.

  “I’m going to return to my room to change,” I tell her. “I’ll be back in fifteen minutes, I promise.”

  And I am. Within half an hour of Stephan appearing at Victoria’s door, she and I find ourselves standing outside my father’s office. I lace my fingers through hers, giving her my most reassuring smile before opening the door.

  My father’s anger is s
o intense I swear I can feel it in the air of the room. His eyes snap to Victoria the moment we step into the room, his lips flattening into a tight line as he looks her up and down. He rises to his feet as his sharp gaze turns to me.

  “You had better have a damned good reason for this,” he says, and I can tell he’s barely containing his fury. “You’re actually considering abdicating the throne? For her?”

  I take a deep breath, trying to keep myself calm. My fingers tighten on Victoria’s.

  “I’d prefer not to abdicate,” I say evenly. “But I will not marry Lady Clarissa. That is not up for negotiation.”

  Something flashes in my father’s eyes at my open defiance, and I half expect him to leap across the desk and slap me right across the face.

  But fortunately, before any such scene can unfold, the door behind us swings open.

  My mother comes in, her skirts swishing around her. Her face is creased with worry.

  “Edmund,” she says, going straight to my father’s side. “What are you doing? What is the meaning of this?”

  Her gentle touch on his arm does little to calm my father’s anger.

  “Your son has apparently decided to abandon his duties,” he says through clenched teeth. “He’s willing to give up his claim to the throne for this…this…” He practically spits the words as he gestures at Victoria.

  My mother throws a concerned look my way before bringing her full attention back to my father. “Surely there’s been a misunderstanding—”

  “It’s simple, Mother,” I say. “His Majesty wishes me to marry Lady Clarissa, but I’ve refused. I’ve chosen Victoria, and I’ve tried to make it clear that while I don’t wish to give up my claim to the throne, I’m willing to do so if it means I am allowed to make my own choices about my life.”

  I see my mother’s grip tighten on my father’s arm. She looks back up at him. “Is this true?”

  My father’s lip twitches. “Your son has made some unforgivable choices, and he must pay the consequences.”

  “By committing to a life of misery? Really, Edmund—I knew this whole thing was a farce from the beginning. Let’s end this ridiculousness now. I only agreed to this because you promised me you’d allow Andrew to make the final decision about his marriage.”

  “That was before I realized he’d gambled away the royal scepter—”

  “A promise is still a promise,” she says. Her face hardens. “I know we do not always see eye-to-eye on matters of state, but this goes too far. Are you truly considering disowning your own son because he refuses to submit to your control?” She releases his arm, her mouth twisting in something like looks like disgust. “You are not the man I thought you were, Edmund.”

  She doesn’t wait for his response. She turns on her heel and strides back across the room to the door.

  I’ve never heard my mother speak to my father like that before. My father looks just as stunned by it as I am—his mouth falls open slightly as he watches her leave the room. His shoulders jerk forward, almost as if he means to go after her, but then he seems to remember that Victoria and I are here. His expression clouds again as his gaze returns to me.

  “Look what you’ve done to your mother,” he says. “You’re destroying your own family. And you will destroy this very country if you continue to act with such selfishness. It is your duty to put the needs of Montovia above all else.”

  His words so perfectly echo the voice that lives in my mind, the one that constantly reminds me of how I’m failing my country. I almost succumb to it then, almost agree to lay everything down for the sake of Montovia.

  But then I feel Victoria’s grip tighten on mine, and I remember why I’m here. Remember what hope feels like.

  “A miserable man would never be the sort of king Montovia deserves,” I say. “And I would die before agreeing to such a life. If you will not accept my decision, then I cannot change that. But I refuse to go another day pretending I don’t have the freedom of choice—I do. And I have made that choice.”

  My father slams his fist on the desk. “You will not make a mockery of the crown a moment longer. As long as you insist upon this foolishness, you will not be welcome in this palace.”

  “So be it,” I say. I turn, tugging Victoria toward the door. “Good day, Your Majesty.”

  “I am not done with you!” my father roars after me.

  I ignore him. I’ve heard enough—it’s clear he has no intention of changing his mind this morning.

  Victoria is frowning.

  “You should go back in there,” she says, trying to pull her hand out of mine. “I’ll leave. I’m the one causing the problem. If I weren’t in the picture—”

  “You won’t leave. You and I belong together—that is the only thing I know with any certainty right now.”

  “But your father—”

  “Will have a long talk with my mother, I’m sure. Perhaps once he’s calmed down she can persuade him to be lenient.”

  “And if she can’t?”

  If she can’t… I don’t want to think about that.

  We’ve reached the end of the corridor, and as we turn the corner, we nearly run right into my sister Sophia. She’s leaning against the wall, almost as if she’s been waiting for us.

  “God, you’ve done it this time,” she says. “I could hear him screaming from here.”

  “You know Father,” I say, still trying to keep my voice even.

  “I know he has a stick up his ass. This is the twenty-first century. We should be allowed to marry whomever we want.” She looks at Victoria, her lips turning up into a smile. “You’ll make a far better wife for Andrew than any of those other stuffy ladies—”

  “Wife?” Victoria says. “Oh, no—it’s nothing like… I mean, we’re not…”

  “Victoria and I have made no official commitments,” I say. “I’ve simply refused to agree to our father’s marriage plans for me.”

  “Oh,” Sophia says with a shrug. “I get it. Didn’t mean to make things awkward.” She gives me a wink.

  “If you’ll excuse us,” I say, “Victoria and I should—”

  “Wait,” Sophia says, her smile dropping. “I was waiting here for you. I wanted to see… Wanted to make sure you were all right.”

  “As you can see, we’ve survived His Majesty.”

  “That—that’s not what I meant.” She glances down either side of the corridor before stepping closer. Her eyebrows are drawn together in concern. “I’ve been worried all night.”

  I frown. “I know dinner yesterday was less than pleasant—”

  “Not about dinner. After that. I saw you.”

  My stomach twists. “Saw me?”

  “On the roof. I went outside for some fresh air and looked up and…and I knew it was you. Even from where I was. Jesus, Andrew—for a minute there I actually thought you meant to jump or something.” She grabs my free hand, squeezing it painfully. “You scared the shit out of me. I ran inside and went all the way up to the tower, but by the time I got there, you were gone. For a minute I thought…fuck, I thought you’d gone over. But I couldn’t see you. Couldn’t find you anywhere. I went to your room next, but you didn’t answer your door. So I went and woke up William, and he ran outside to check the gardens and gymnasium while I looked elsewhere in the palace. I almost called the Royal Guard, but I didn’t want to wake our parents unless I knew something had happened…” She drops her gaze. “I finally ended up at Victoria’s room. No one answered when I knocked, but the door was unlocked so I peeked in…” Her cheeks turn slightly pink. “I didn’t want to disturb your sleep, but I wanted to come find you today, just in case.”

  I don’t know how to respond to this confession—I wasn’t aware anyone saw me on the roof, least of all my sister.

  “I’m fine,” I say gently. “You can see that now.”

  “But you were thinking about it. You thought about jumping.”

  I know I hesitate a moment too long because I hear the sharp intake of Victor
ia’s breath beside me.

  Victoria

  My first assignment at Celebrity Spark Magazine was to cover the escapades of a new singer. A rock star who’d had what looked from the outside to be an overnight success.

  People love those stories—it gives them hope that they might find a magic bullet of their own one day. That lucky breaks happen all the time and that one might happen for the reader of the tabloid story, too.

  What most people don’t realize is there is no such thing as an overnight success. The guy I was covering had certainly made it big with his new song—the first he had released with the record label he was signed to—but it was by no means his first song. He had worked very hard for years for his “overnight” success.

  Even with all the work he had put in, nothing ever prepares a person for fame. For notoriety. Especially people who go from being like that guy—under the radar—to being the celebrity everyone wants to know everything about.

  He seemed like a decent enough person, at least at first. He granted interviews to anyone who wanted one. He walked around in public like nothing had changed. But everything had changed. Within a month, his life wasn’t his own anymore. Every decision he made had to be cleared through his publicist or manager—they wanted to be sure he was portraying the right image to his fans. They owned every second of his life.

  When he started in the music business, he thought his dream was to be a famous singer. But that really wasn’t it at all. His real dream had been to make his living singing. But it was the first dream that came true, and with his fame, everything else was ruined.

  He finally couldn’t take it anymore—couldn’t live with the pressure and demands of constantly having to live like a circus animal, performing for everyone else. Having no life of his own.

  He jumped from the roof of the building that housed his record label six months after his first song hit the top of the charts.